I recently found myself
in the midst of a conversation that eventually led to the other person asking
me if I was a fatalistic Christian. I must admit the question stumped me
because I had no idea what the term meant. After some research and a discussion
with my husband I found myself before the computer trying to pull my thoughts
and beliefs together as I pondered the answer I would give. I wasn’t intending
to write out an answer at that time only to get my thoughts in order so that I
could answer and in the end what I wrote was a reply.
You see…I believe what I
see in Scripture…nothing more, nothing less. If what I see in scripture makes
me a Christian fatalist then maybe I am but to me I simply believe what I see
in Scripture.
The question as to whether
or not I’m a fatalistic Christian wasn’t a question that came out of the blue.
It was part of a bigger conversation (carried out through email) that had been
going on for some time, gradually leading up to the point where the question
was asked. That question and the conversation it was a part of has made me grow
and learn as I wrote out my own answers. My own thoughts have been clarified,
my own understanding taken deeper as I explained my position through each step
of this conversation.
I believe that the very
nature of how we approach Scripture affects what we believe and we get out of
it. But it isn’t just that…those same beliefs are affecting how we see life and
how we live out our faith.
In the last year I have
done more studying and learning of scripture and the things of scripture than I
ever have in my life. My beliefs have grown and changed as I’ve come to better
understand my own beliefs. In all that learning I’ve learned that there are two
ways to see the basics of God. We have God saving man or we have man working
his way to God. And in those two ways of seeing it are two very different
beliefs that affect pretty much all of how a person believes. It is what
everything else boils down to. It’s the very basics of how we relate to all of
Scripture.
As I see it…it is God
saving us all on His own. There’s nothing we can do, have done, or will ever do
that will or could have changed His decision to save us. On the other hand…the
other way of approaching Scripture leads to a belief that something a person
does places them into the position to attain salvation. That may be through
their ‘choice’ to believe in Christ or it may be in their attempt to work their
way into salvation in some way. But for me the only way I can see it is to
start with God and only God. I can’t do anything but give all the credit to Him
and none of the credit to me or anything I’ve ever done or will ever do.
For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that
not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; 9 not as a result of works, so that
no one may boast. (Ephesians 2:8-9 NASB)
Either of those above views will affect not only how we believe
but it will affect nearly every other thing we do in life. Those are
fundamental beliefs that are the base of where so many of our other beliefs
come from.
When I read Scripture I
read it in black and white. As part of the conversation that led to the
question about whether or not I’m a fatalistic Christian the topic of Eli came
up. It was a rather long conversation that went back and forth for a while. But
it was only a part of a much bigger conversation. The entire conversation
spanned everything from Eli to marriage and the raising of children.
Here is my response…
All I can see in
Eli’s story is a man that was a priest…and so had to live an outwardly faithful
and obedient life…who raised two son’s that sinned in adulthood. That Eli
reprimanded them…possibly out of love…but failed to fulfill the duties of his
position as priest and was punished for it. He took in a child that wasn’t his
and possibly treated him as his own…shown in him calling Samuel ‘my son’…and in
the end raised two son’s that ended up sinning and were destroyed as a result
of it and one…almost…son that grew up to be righteous. That is what I see. And
if you look to Eli’s story…that’s all that’s there. Nothing else. That is the
black and white of Eli in Scripture.
If I were to take
Eli’s story further I would have to point to Malachi 1:3 and Romans 9:13 where
it says Jacob have I loved, Esau I hated. These were two brothers, raised by
the same parents, what made the difference here? Why was one loved and the
other hated? Did Esau gain the Lord’s hate because his parents failed to walk
out an unfeigned faith in front of him? Did Jacob gain the Lord’s love because
his parents did walk out an unfeigned faith? They were the same parents. It
can’t be both ways…either the parents showed the kind of unfeigned faith you
speak of or they didn’t. And yet they raised two sons that did not receive the
same treatment from the Lord. One was loved, the other hated. Why? Because of
something the parents did? Or maybe because…
What shall we say then? There is no
injustice with God, is there? May it never be! 15For He says to Moses, "I
WILL HAVE MERCY ON WHOM I HAVE MERCY, AND I WILL HAVE COMPASSION ON WHOM I HAVE
COMPASSION." 16So then it does not depend on the man who
wills or the man who runs, but on God who has mercy Romans 9:15-16
If you want to look to the old
testament…
18Then Moses said, "I pray You, show me
Your glory!" 19And He said, "I Myself will make all My
goodness pass before you, and will proclaim the name of the LORD before you;
and I will be gracious to whom I will be gracious, and will show compassion on
whom I will show compassion." Exodus 33:18-19
Here, in the black
and white of Scripture, I see the Lord loved Jacob and hated Esau because He
chose to have mercy on one and not the other. Per Romans 9:16… then it does not depend on the man
who wills or the man who runs, but on God who has mercy. There’s no room in
that…that I can see…for any actions either of the person being saved or not
saved or of the parents. It’s all in the Lord’s hands…I will have mercy on whom
I have mercy. Where does the parents actions come into that? Where does even
our own actions come into it?
From there I look to Romans 9:22-23…
What if God, desiring to show
his wrath and to make known his power, has endured with much patience vessels
of wrath prepared for destruction, 23 in order to make known the riches
of his glory for vessels of mercy, which he has prepared beforehand for glory—
I see no room in
any of that for the outward displays of faith of any person in their salvation
or in their children’s salvation. The Lord specifically said…I will have mercy
on whom I have mercy. That’s it…all God…all Christ…no man. If that doesn’t
spell it out enough I see in Romans 9:22-23 where it says he has prepared some
for destruction in order to save those he has prepared for mercy. Again I see
God…no man. It’s what He has planned, His design, His decree…nothing of man.
Nothing of parents. Just God.
Going back to
Eli…we have three sons…three young men raised by the same man. Two were
destroyed, one was chosen by God. Why? They were raised by the same person. If
the dads unfeigned faith or lack of it was the reason for the sins of the two
sons why didn’t the third one follow the same path? He had not only Eli as an
example but Eli’s sons as well. Of the three if example was the reason for
their destruction Samuel should have been the least likely to be saved. But the
two sons were destroyed and Samuel was saved. Again…why? If the answer lies
only in Eli’s unfeigned faith or lack of it…what made two wind up destroyed and
the third saved?
If on the other
hand we look at it in the black and white…we know nothing of Eli’s faith one
way or the other beyond what we know of what it took to become a priest…and we
know nothing of how he raised his children and Samuel and if we look first to
God…His plan, His purpose, His decree, His choice…and know that He loved Jacob
and hated esau, who had the same parents setting the same example for them and
if Scripture tells us…I will have mercy on whom I have mercy…and that there are
‘vessels of wrath prepared for destruction’ and ‘vessels of mercy’…what do we
have? Could it possibly be that Eli’s sons were vessels of destruction? If I
were to look to Eli’s story again and if I wanted to read anything of great
significance into his story it would be…Now Eli’s sons were worthless men. They
did not know the Lord. 1 samuel 2:12…the kjv says… Now the sons of
Eli were sons of Belial; they knew not the Lord. That
wasn’t Eli’s failure. If the point of Eli’s story was to show us Eli’s failure
as a parent to raise his children to have an ‘unfeigned faith’ would we not be
told something like…Eli’s children were worthless because Eli’s faith wasn’t
strong enough to point them in the right direction? If the purpose of Eli in
the ot was to show us how not to parent our children wouldn’t we see that in
the black and white of Scripture? Instead we see the story of the saving of one
boy…which placed him into his place in the greater plan of God…and therefore of
the salvation of the Elect…than we do of any other thing. We have two sons that
were destroyed, one saved. Why?
I see vessels of
destruction and a vessel of mercy. We know that only Christ was sinless
therefore Samuel would have sinned. What made the sins of Eli’s sons any worse
than the sins that Samuel committed? Were the sins of Eli’s sons so great that
they earned them death while the sins of Samuel didn’t deserve the same? The
only way that makes sense to me is to see it through the eyes of the black and
white of Scripture…I will have mercy on whom I have mercy…and to see that quite
possibly the sons were the vessels of destruction while Samuel was the vessel
of mercy.
Does that make me a
Christian fatalist? I don’t know. I guess it depends on how you see Christian
fatalism. I do believe the Lord is sovereign in all, that’s it’s his
creation…including people…to do with as he sees fit. I believe he will save His
elect and won’t save the non-elect. I believe that there’s nothing we can do to
become one of the elect and that there’s nothing we can do to keep from
becoming one of the elect.
I don’t believe
we can work our way to Christ. I don’t believe we can work our children to
Christ. I don’t believe that if we just pump enough Scripture into them and set
a good enough example we can get them to a place where God will ‘visit their
hearts’. In Scripture we are commanded to teach the gospel…this is to our
children as well as all others. We are to share it. Our faith…if we are truly
regenerate should be a natural extension that manifests itself in ways that
others will know we are different but I don’t believe we are to live out a
system of works that will gain us closer access to the Lord. I don’t believe
that if we can just act a certain way, teach our children a certain way, that
the Lord will ‘visit their hearts’ or save them in any way. I believe that He
will save them or not according to His will and not through anything we do or
do not do. I don’t believe that if we can just live out a life of sinless
perfection that He will in any way owe us anything where our children (or
ourselves) are concerned.
If that was the
way it worked neither my husband nor I would have been saved. Neither one of us
ever had that ‘unfeigned faith’ lived out before us.
To me…the outward showing of faith comes from
an inward change. It’s the byproduct of what has happened in the heart and soul
and has nothing to do with any physical or verbal actions on our part. If our
salvation is real then the Lord will change our heart and our lives will show
that but it will be because it is a natural manifestation of the changes of our
hearts and souls and not a conscious, outward work that we do because we are
trying to reach God.
No matter how
good we are, no matter how religious we are, no matter how many outward works
we do…we can’t reach Christ, or get our children to Christ. Only He can save us
(or them) and He will do that or not no matter what we do or do not do.
I don’t believe faith is inherited. I don’t believe we can live
out our faith in a way that our children will ‘catch’ it the way they would the
chicken pox. I believe that our children will be influenced by us, by our lives
and actions, by our beliefs and faith but that they will in no way be saved
because of them. Their salvation rests in the Lords hands and nowhere else.
People can show a belief they do not feel. This can show up in the
way they dress, their commitment to a physical church building, the way they
raise their children, the things they say or do. Just because they show an
outward system of works that makes them look to be a Christian that doesn’t
mean they have been saved by the Lord.
Everything we do should be in obedience to the Lord. We are to try
and avoid all sin but when we fail…no if, but when…we are forgiven in Christ.
This brings me back to where I was before. My belief is that our
faith comes straight from the Lord. It is not a result of anything we have done
nor is it a result of anything our parents did or did not do in raising us. It
is the Lord’s will to draw us to him and to save us and it is a gift from Him
that should be seen as such. With no assumption that we can work our children
into the same gift or that if we can live out a life of works that He will
somehow owe us the salvation of our children. That was a very difficult point
for me to get around. And to accept.
All of that to say everything I do, every view I have on life,
stems from the belief that it is God that saved me and I can’t work my way to
Him.
Is that Chrsitian fatalism? See it as you want to but for me it is
nothing more than putting my life into my Lord’s hands and accepting whatever
plan He has in place for me.
I do not believe
in free will. We are God’s creations. He does with us what He wants to do with
us. That includes the miniscule things in our lives as well as the huge things
in our lives. We are His whether we want to be or not, whether we acknowledge
His existence or not, and He does with us what He wants to. (This was in response to a
comment of us acting out of our own free will)
Either we believe
God is sovereign or we don’t. If he is sovereign than everything…great and
small…are within his command. If He isn’t sovereign than He really has no
control.
If believing what
I see in Scripture and believing that the Lord controls everything in His
creation makes me a fatalist believer then that’s what I am. As I saw
recently…’In the beginning God. Not ‘in the beginning man’. The Lord created
all…people included…He saves who he wants to and doesn’t save who he wants to
and all that we are is within His control and plans.
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